Touch Me Not

well,i guess so.but its really hard. i dont wanna feel this way, its really ruining me inside,and its really heavy to feel like this.sigh,i felt this already, just recently, but it all became good, but then again, things went berserk again.

if you can just read this, who ever you guys are, i hope things get better sooner or later...coz its really hard feeling this way...sigh..

anyway, so with this reasons, that got a lot crowded in my mind, i will not be here on buzznet that much anymore..i'll miss you guys..its just that,i still got a lot of improtant things to handle with it..

damn,it really shows that if i took up psychology, it'd be really hard..

well,havent been here for a while,thats coz i was busy with some stuffs,particullary,
my friend got hit by a car last week..:( i was so shocked when my other friend, hallie, called me up that ericka (my friend) got hit by a car that afternoon. i just got home that time from my other friends' house coz it was her birthday. ericka wasnt able to go,which i wish she had so that didnt happened to her..:( so yeah,that night, me and hallie went to the hospital, she's quite ok,we talked to her and all...plus her parents arent home,they're at US, so yeah, good thing her aunt came rushing to take care for ericka..

after a day or so there were complications at first, she had an internal bleeding...then they siad she'll need to be operated, but then they said they'll look and observe again, after that they said she'll just need to stay at the hospital for 2 weeks or so..so yeah,good thing she's ok and didnt suffer with other hard complications and stuff...

get well soon ericka!

omgee.haha..:))

(ok i know,not really a journal..but what the heck..i think im inlove..thats all i can say..haha)

so,what do you think of this band?
just heard of them..so yeah..try to listen to them..
are the great?
good?
bad?
i wanna know your opinions..


heres the LINK:
http://stereogum.com/archives/band-to-watch/band-to-watch-mt-st-helens-vietnam-band_011531.html?utm_source=bb&utm_medium=mc

so,i was looking at the MCR buzznet page,and i just thought of taking this quizes about which MCR member are you most likely,so yeah i took this quizzes..(though i think i've taken some of this already last-last year or something..haha)

1st one i took, i got mikey way
2nd, i got gerard
3rd, mikey, again
4th, frank
5th, mikey  
6th, gerard
7th, gerard
8th, frank
9th, mikey
10th, gerard

so,over all i got 4 mikey results, then 4 gerard, and 2 frank results..

therefore,its a tie,.im gonna take another quiz...
lol
i got ray..haha

gotta take another,i shouls either get a mikey or gerard result...haha

omgee,i got ray again

haha!
another one then...

oh,yeah! well,i got gerard..:D

(im sorry,im just really bored,and find what im doing, amusing..haha)

quizzes i took are from guizilla.com
spin.com
gotoquiz.com
quizfarm.com
quiztron.com
quiz.myyearbook.com
(i searched at yahoo.com,thats where i got this sites..)


oh,and oh yeah!i got the black parade is dead! XD and got free invites to a special screenign of it on friday..but my parents are still thinking about it,if im allowed to go..coz i asked them too if i could go to the panic at the disco concert.:) i hope they allow me to go to this 2 events,but its not gonna happened though,i know..i sense it already..i think they wont allow me to either of the events..:( but still,i hope though..*crosses fingers*)

so yeah,im wondering who likes them...coz i know i dont...they dont even have a drummer for petes sake,i mean,i think they all play the guitar,whos the drummer then?---just stating my opinion,no need to hate me or anything---

yay!im back..lol..(i hope its for good)..anyway,it was like, 2 month i think that passed..so yeah..heres the fanfic...lol

Chantal’s POV

“Ryan it’ll get better, this will all get better. Just have hope and faith.” I said as I hugged Ryan while we’re sitting on his bed. He told me everything, about his mom and dad divorcing to the drinking problems of Mr. Ross.

“I hope so…” he whispered.

 

We heard a nock, “hey, Ryan can I come in?”  we heard Spencer say. I can also hear the sadness of his voice as he worries about Ryan.

 

Ryan nod, so I said “yeah Spence, he said you can.”

 

We comforted him and he asked us, “What am I suppose to do?”

 

“Just be strong Ryan, your dad will get to his senses.” Spencer said. We sat along each side of Ryan I being at his right while Spencer at his left.

 

I really hope his father will stop drinking…

 

Spencer’s POV

I can really see the sadness thru Chantal’s eyes. She really cared about Ryan and was worried too. We just met like an hour or so, and we already treat each other like we we’re friends for ages. I bet we’ll all be good friends…

 

As Ryan stood he asked, “Let’s call Brendon?”

 

“yeah, sure if you want.” I said while getting my phone.

 

“ok then.” He said.

 

As I called Brendon, I can see Chantal looking at Ryan. Ryan was looking outside his window. Maybe she likes him… or is just really worried…I don’t know…

 

Ryan’s POV

As I hear Spencer talking to Brendon, I just stared at the skies outside of my window. I have mixed emotions now, I’m really furious, mad, worried, and really pissed off because of my dad, and I also feel happiness and love, because my friends are comforting me. And Chantal being a good friend already, I feel something about her.

 

“Hey,” Chantal said, appearing beside me. “What are you looking at?”

“Isn’t it obvious?” I said jokingly.

She laughed, “I know, but, I dunno, I want to here you say it.” she said blushing.

I laughed, “Ok, I’ll say it. I am looking at the skies, the stars and the moon.”

She laughed too. I’m really happy with Chantal, she makes me smile and laugh easily.

“So, tell me who’s Brendon.”
“Uhmm, well, his our friend.” I said laughing.

“I know that Ryan, tell me more.” She said smiling.

“Well, he’s also our lead singer, he also plays guitar, his really a happy person, likes to laugh, and his coming here any minuet now.” I said.

She laugh, “Oh, cool. So you’re like the lead guitarist?”

“Yeah, I think so.” Is said looking back at her.

“You think so?” she laughed. “you know what Ryan, you make me laugh, I like that.”

“Really? Aww, I’m flattered. Hahahaha.”

 

Then we just kinda stared at each others eyes, but Spencer interrupted us, “Brendon’s on his why!”

“Ok.” I said walking towards my guitar at the corner of my room. My guitar was besides my computer table/study table/book shelf.

“What, we’re going to practice?”

“Yeah. That’s the point of Brendon coming here right?” I said while putting my guitar straps at my guitar.

“But I thought we we’re just going to relax and---”

“Uhm.. Well is that ok with you, not going to practice tonight?” I asked while Chantal sat at my bed.

“Yeah of course, lets go down stairs then?” Spencer asked getting my guitar off my hand and returning it to its proper place.

 

When we went down stairs at the living room, I see Jon and Sam talking. Then we heard the doorbell.

“Who is it?” Jon asked laughing while going near the door.

“It’s Brendon. Now, let me in Jon.”

“What if I don’t Brendon?”

“What the hell Jon. Just let him in.” I said.

 

As Brendon entered, Sam went to greet him, “Hi Brendon, I’m Sam.”

“Hi.” He said looking at me, Jon and Spencer.

“We met a while ago at Starbucks and we hanged out.” Spencer explained.

“And this is Chantal.” Jon said while Chantal went to sit beside Sam and Jon.

“Hi.” She said.

“Hi Chantal,” Brendon said “nice to meet you and Sam.”

“You too.” Sam replied.

“Uhmm, so, how was the concert?” Brendon asked. As he sat at the couch which is for only one and I sat at the other couch like that facing him with a coffee table between us.

“It was awesome. By the way, we got you the purple MCR hoodie you always wanted.” Spencer said.

“Oh, Thanks guys!” he said.

“I’m just going to get it inside my car.” Spencer said.

 

After we talked, Chantal and Sam told us who they saw at the concert. Spencer was pissed off by Jacob who happens to be Sam’s ex-boyfriend. Then after all the chat, me and the guys talked privately with Brendon at the kitchen, while we leaved the girls watching at the living room.

 

Chantal’s POV

“It’s ok Ryan, really, we’ll just watch TV.” I said as they were about to talk about something at the kitchen.

“Uhm, ok. We’ll be right back.” He said smiling at me and Sam.

 

Sam turned the TV on, and it was on Channel V- Asia. The show that’s on now was PPRZ. I don’t know what that stands for but the guy was reading some requests.

 

“Why? Again?” We heard Brendon asking.

 

“What do you think they’re talking about?” Sam whispered to me.

“Uhm, I don’t know, maybe Ryan’s dad being drunk again?”

“Oh, maybe…” she said looking at the “sort” of kitchen door.” I hope his dad would stop it already, doesn’t he know his already hurting Ryan inside.”

“Yeah, let us just hope he’ll come to his senses.”

 

After 10 minutes the guys returned to the living room. Ryan sat beside me while Spencer sat next to Sam, which leaves Brendon and Jon sitting at the other couches.

 

As we watched the music video “Turning Japanese” by the Vapors, Jon said, “It’s kinda late do you girls want us guys to drive you home later?”

“Oh, why don’t they sleep over here tonight, well its already 2 am so, do you want to sleep here today?” Brendon said turning the mood of the room into hysteria.

“Why don’t we just live here Ryan? Is that ok?” Sam asked jokingly.

“Oh, that’d be great!” Ryan said.

“Well then me, Jon and Spencer would move here too if you don’t mind.” Brendon said while laughing.

“Of course I mind.” Ryan said laughing.

“Awww, but we want to be here. Pwetty please?” Brendon said while kneeling in front of Ryan.

“No.” Ryan said.

“You hear him boys. Let’s make him let us live here.”  Spencer said. Then they attacked Ryan. They wrestled with each other while me and Sam just laugh at them.

 

“Ok, ok, I give up.” Ryan said.

“Hahaha, we know you will, now give me a peck on the cheek.” Brendon said.

“Hahahaha. no way Breeny-Boy. I told you guys his turning gay every second his with me!” Ryan said laughing.

We were all laughing.

 

“I’ll Always Carry a Little Piece Of You With Me”
Chapter 2

 

“Yeah, and were sorry. We just saw you’re wearing MCR shirts and we also heard that you two went to the concert.” I said while looking at the three guys.

“oh, did you went to the concert?” Spencer asked Sam.

“uhm, yeah.” Sam answered.

“By the way, I’m Spencer. And this is Ryan and Jon.”

“Yeah, so we’ve heard. Well, I’m Sam and my friend over here is Chantal.” Sam said.

Spencer got to his feet and went to our table and shook our hands, Jon came too. Spencer said, “I’m sorry, about Ryan, his just really shy.”

“oh ,its ok. I’m shy around new people too.” I said as I looked at Ryan.

“but you don’t look shy.” Jon said.

“I don’t?” I asked.

“nah, you just turned red, that’s all.” Spencer said.

“oh, so were both red huh?” Sam said.

“yeah. You specially, looks like a tomato.” Spencer said and sat beside Sam.

Sam looked at me with, his-seating-beside-me-what-should-I-do look. I whispered in her right ear, “just be relax.”

“come on Ryan, lets join this lovely girls. Oh ,but can we?” Jon turned to us then.

Sam said “sure,”

While Jon sat in front of Sam, Ryan went to sit in front of me. Then I saw he was so cute. If he just hadn’t had his back to us all along, I should had admire him earlier. He has beautiful brown hair and a little Mohawk which looks so cute on him. And he has brown eyes too. He was wearing a black MCR band shirt and skinny black jeans.

 

 

Ryan’s POV

 

I sat in front of Chantal. She was gorgeous. She has long brown hair which is placed into a pony tail and she has beautiful brown eyes. She wasn’t wearing a band shirt until Sam, Spencer and me. She had a black and white checkered shirt on and a leather jacket. She’s also wearing skinny jeans and black and white checkered converse.

 

“So, Jon, I was wondering, are you the manager around here?” Sam asked.

“yeah.”

“ohh, cool.” Sam said.

 

I was still staring at Chantal the whole time and I hadn’t notice how long it was but Jon waved his hands in front of my face. “Hey Ryan,” Jon said. “its time to go.”

“oh, to my house?”

“no, at the zoo.” Jon said sarcastically

 

As we went outside Starbucks,

“so, me and Sam will take my car while Ryan will ride with Chantal.” Spencer said.

“oh, hold on a sec., and where am I going to ride with?” Jon asked.

“well, Johnny-Boy, you walk to Ryan’s house. Ok?” Spencer said.

“But---”

“No buts Johnny-Boy, you walk, while we ride.” Spencer said. Then we all laugh.

“awwww, poor Johnny-Boy, you can ride with us then.” Chantal said with a big smile.

“Awesome! I take the back seat!” Jon said while running towards Chantal’s car.

 

She has a shinny black Mercedes.

“uhm, hey Chantal, is that a new car?” I asked her as we walked towards her car.

She said, “yeah. I---,” she was cut off by Spencer who said “see you guys later.”

“yeah sure!” I answered.

 

“do you want me to drive?” I asked her as she was about to open the drivers car-door.

“if you don’t mind.” She said as she smiled at me with her beautiful perfect white teeth.

“ok.” I said while walking towards her and taking the keys. Then as she walked towards the passenger seat next to the driver., I run to get the door for her.

“thanks Ryan.”

“no prob.”

 

As we drove to my house, I feel much comfortable around Chantal. We talked about the concert, and our favorite bands and about our band.

 

“so, what’s your band’s name?”

“its called Panic at the Disco.” I said while still keeping my eyes on the rode.

“oh, nice. So, how did your band form?”

“well me and Spencer knew each other since we were little kids. I got a new guitar for Christmas and Spencer got his drums too. We played and we found Brendon and Johnny-Boy here.”

“don’t call me Johnny-Boy.” Jon said.

“awwww, but we love calling you Johnny Boy.” Chantal said while laughing. I laughed too, her laugh is contagious.

“Don’t call me Johnny-Boy, woman!” Jon said jokingly.

“Make me.” Chantal said while showing off her tongue.

“you act like a 5 year old.”
“nah-ah.”

“yeah-ah.”

“nah-ah”

 

Then we arrive to my house and they were still fighting about Chantal acting like a 5 year old. I just laugh at them and as we got off Chantal’s car, I see my dad drinking again at the lawn. And Spencer hasn’t arrived yet.

 

“will you two stop it?” I said getting pretty mad now.

“I’ll take her inside then. Ok?” Jon said pulling Chantal towards my house.

 

I looked at my dad. I wasn’t sure what I feel, do I feel sad or mad? Am I sad because my dad won’t listen to us and still keeps on drinking or am I mad at the fact that after all we’ve been through to just stop him, he still gets drunk.

“dad!” I shouted.

“what the hell is wrong with you Ryan?”  my dad said.

“nothings wrong with me dad, aren’t I suppose to ask you that question?”

 

Spencer’s POV

 

“Shit.” I said as I see Ryan and his dad getting into an argument in front of their house.

“what?” Sam asked.`

“its Ryan’s dad, his drunk again and he and Ryan is fighting.”

“oh, I’m sorry to here that. Has he’s dad been like that for a long time?” Sam asked getting really worried about Ryan.

“yeah. Poor guy. His dad and mom divorced when he was 3 years old and his dad always drinks and gets drunk. So everyday they get into a fight.”

“awww, I feel for Ryan.”

“yeah, me too Sam, me too…” I trailed off us I see Jon peeking at the front door. I waved at him and he nod. “wait here a sec. ok? We’ll just break this up.” I said as I got off the car. Jon went outside so we went straight to Ryan and his dad.

I said, “Ryan, stop. His already drunk he’s still not thinking well, you should just continue this tomorrow.”

“no, he has to learn an----” he said.

“no Ryan, Tomorrow will be a good day to talk to him. Not now while his drunk, lets go inside.”

I pulled Ryan by the arm and made our way inside. Jon followed us while escorting Ryan’s dad to the couch in the living room.

 

Ryan went to his room and I asked if he wants us to leave. He said he needs us guys so I said, “I’ll just get Sam from the car, she’s already getting worried before I even went to get you.”

“yeah, sure.”  Ryan said.

 

As I went downstairs, I see Mr. Ross lay on the couch.

“Jon, did he pass out?”

“I think so. I’m not sure, coz when I placed him here he kinda feel asleep or yeah, pass out.”

“oh, do you think we should move him into his room?” I asked eyeing Mr. Ross who was still holding a bottle of beer.

“maybe you should. How’s Ryan,” Chantal said getting upset and worried. “do you think I should go see him to comfort him?”

“yeah, lets bring him to his room Jon. And yeah, try to comfort him, it’ll definitely help him.

“ok.” Chantal said. But as she got to the stairs she asked “By the way where’s Ryan’s room?”

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well,hope you guys like this..XD

specially my friend "gitzwentz"...XD

oh, god! oh, god!hahaha. yay! i'm on here again! hah. i was like not here for a week or so. damn, i miss this palce and the people here! XD

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I’m sorry it took so long to post. The internet connection was fucked up, so I can’t use the internet for like week. I’m so pissed off coz of that. But the good thing is that, it’s ok already. So here you go..XD

 

 “I’ll Always Carry a Little Piece Of You With Me”

Chapter 1

 

Chantal’s POV

 

“What the---?! Hey, Chantal! Hey wait! I’d just get my bag!”

“Well then, better run for me huh!?” I shouted as Sam crashed open the door.

 

I got pissed off of waiting for her for almost an hour! Oh! Wait it wasn’t just an hour, it was THREE stinkin’ hours. Sheesh, that girl can be a pain in the butt sometimes. But I still love her like a sister though. I know I also take time to get ready, like for an hour. But THREE hours!?

 

Sam has shoulder length hair it was color brown which compliments her skin. She has beautiful pair of blue eyes. And she was wearing a MCR shirt, skirt and her favorite pair of converse.

 

I was almost driving a block away from our house when I saw Sam come running towards my car.

“Hey! Wait! Oh crap! Wait! I’ll catch you! I will! Don’t laugh at me bitch!” Sam shouted as she was running as hell just to catch up with me. I was laughing my ass off at her. So I slowed the car coz I might crash or something because I was watching her and laughing so hard.

 

“Don’t laugh at me,” Sam said as she entered my car and sat at the passenger sit next to me. “ you better pay for what you did Chantal. That wasn’t very funny.”

“But I waited for 3 fucked up hours just to see you get dress and undress and do your make up and hair. So its fair for me to make you run.” I said as I stopped laughing and continued to drive.

 

“Fine. I deserve it.” 

“yes, good little Sammy-wammy. Now, give me 20 bucks so that I could get some merch at the concert!” I said as we drove pass the local record bar.

“ ugh, don’t call me sammy-wammy!”

“ok then little girl!”

“im not little! As a matter of fact, im only 2 inches shorter than you.” Sam said as she poked my arm.

“fine, just give me my 20 bucks.” I said as I poked her too.

“no way. And stop poking me, get your hand on the wheel.”

 

As we laughed and cried,(because of laughing so much), we almost ran into an old lady who was crossing the street. We finally reached the concert venue. We were about to see our favorite band, My Chemical Romance, live, for the 5^th time. We just love their album “Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge”. The parking lot wasn’t full though, but there’s already a line in front of the entrance. We’re an hour early, so we went to the merch. Booth.

 

As we walked towards the booth,  “oh god, look!” Sam said pointing to the two guys looking at the merchandises.

“isn’t that---” before I could even finish my sentence. The two guys are already walking towards us.

“well but it isn’t my good ol’ EX-girlfriend and her little bitch.” Jacob said smirking at Sam.

“hey, don’t fucking call Chantal a bitch you man whore, what the fuck are you even fuckin here for?”

“isn’t it obvious, skank!?”

“it is obvious im not dumb. I want to here why you even wanna see MCR?! You hate them, remember? Oh, I forgot! You are an idiot to even remember what you like and hate!” Sam said already turning red.

“stop it! please! Sam, lets just go.” I said as I tried to pull Sam.

“no, I wanna here what this son of a bitch has to say.”

“I don’t like them! I’m gonna do something and you have no rights to even know what it is bitch! Oh, wait, but the question here is, why do you even listen to them, they’re just a bunch of loser emo’s who sings about their dead grandma’s! What the fuck is that all about?” Jacob said.

“what the fuck Jacob! MCR ain’t fucking EMO ok! And you just don’t get their creativity! You----” before this turns into a big scene, I cut Sam off,

“wait, the question JACOB is why the fuck do you---. Oh, I know, you are still jealous coz Sam likes Gerard Way. Jacob, don’t you fucking understand that she loves you more than Gerard Way, he’s her crush, she wasn’t in love with him. She doesn’t even know him personally. So why the fuck break up with her and break her heart, and you tell us that she broke your fucked up heart?! You broke hers by being an idiot and now you don’t love each other anymore. You ruined it. We don’t want see your face again! Come on Sam.”

As I turned to looked at Sam, she was starting to cry, I walked to her side and I placed my left arm to her shoulder and we walked away. We went to the car, I sat her down and I comforted her.

“Chantal, I--just----don’t---understand—but-----,” she said between sobs.

“Awww, hun. Hi’s an idiot, you are better off with out that jerk. He just don’t get how you just like Gerard way as a hero.”

 

After we settled it down and Sam fixed herself up, we went to line up. As we saw there aren’t no lines anymore, we run to enter before we get too late.

 

As we entered, The Used were already playing the song “ Blue and Yellow”. That was Sam’s favorite song from The Used, so her mood changed. As The Used finished off, MCR entered the stage. Their first song was “ Give em’ hell kid”. As we jumped, and sing along to all the songs, on the last song “Helena”, all went wrong.

“things are better if I stayed, so long and good night so long and----shit!” as Gerard sang, he got hit by a bottle on his left cheek. It was already broken, the bottle, before it hit Gerard. So we saw Gerard wiping the blood off of his cheek and continued to sing. They finished “Helena” and Gerard said, “thank you and goodnight!” as they all got off the stage.

 

“who the fuck hit Gerard with a bottle?” I asked Sam as we were getting back to the car.

“I think Jacob did it, remember he said that he will do something here.” Sam said getting angry.

 

It was 11:50 pm as I looked at the clock. “you wanna get something to eat or drink?” I asked as I parked the car at Starbucks.

“yeah, im a bit hungry.” Sam said. So we went inside Starbucks. I ordered two mocha frappe and a salad. “hey, look at those guys, they’re wearing MCR shirts.” Sam said as she looked at the guys who sat by the window.

 I got the change and we sat at the far end corner of. I sipped my mocha frappe, while Sam ate her salad and taking some sip of her mocha frappe.

 

“have you looked at those guys already? Coz I haven’t notice you looked.. the guy who is using his lap top is cute.”

 

So I looked, the guy who was using his lap top was facing us while the other guy’s back is facing us. As I looked I saw the guy who has his back to us, was using his sidekick. We heard him say, “what the?, hey Spencer look at this.”

Sam whispered, “His name’s Spencer isn’t that cute?”

 

At that moment, we saw a guy who looks like the manager of Starbucks.

“what can I help you with boys?” he asked Spencer and the other guy who still has hii back facing us.

“haha, very funny., Mr. Walker why don’t you look at this?”

“what is it Mr. Ross?”

“ugh,don’t call me Mr. Ross.”

“well, don’t call me Mr. Walker.”

“why doesn’t anybody call me Mr.?” Spencer asked pouting.

They all laughed. And Sam giggled a little bit. “Isn’t he so funny?” Sam said.

“why do you act like a fan girl?” I asked while laughing.

“im not a fan girl, ewwww.” Sam said.

“but I didn’t said you were, I said ---ugh, never mind.” I said. I was curious about what’s in the cell phone.

 

“ what the--? They broke up? Why?” the guy who we think is the manager asked the two guys.

“We still don’t know Jon. But if Amanda loves him so much, why’d she brake up with him?” Spencer said.

“We just need to ask Brendon ourselves then. Are you finished with your shift Jon?”  the guy who has the sidekick said.

Jon, the manager-looking-guy, looked at his watch.

“15 minuets to go.” He said.

“ok, we’ll just wait. Then we’ll got o my house and call Brendon.” The guy with the sidekick said.

“ok, sounds like a plan. So, anyway, how did the concert went?” Jon asked.

“it was awesome dude!” Spencer said.

“yeah, but at the last song which was “Helena”, Gerard way got hit by a broken bottle. But if didn’t happened, Buster told me, MCR and The Used were suppose to sing “under pressure” as a special finally.” The guy with the sidekick said.

“who’s Buster? A dog?” Jon asked.

“ no he isn’t a dog, he’s one of the stage crew. He’s from our school when we were in middle school.” Spencer said.

“ohh. Speaking of bands when will we start our practice?” Jon asked.

“Ryan?” Spencer asked.

Jon and Spencer looked at the guy with the sidekick.

“I don’t know. Ask Brendon. But until Brendon is still sad about the brake up, we should postpone our band practices, Brendon can’t sing while his in that condition.” Ryan said.

 

As me and Sam looked at each other, “hahaha, we were just listening to this guys talking.” Sam pointed out. And we were laughing at this.

“haha, yeah.” I said. We just don’t have something to do and we kinda got interested with those guys. We got the same taste in music, and they got a band.

“who do you think Brendon is?” Sam asked me.

At that, the 3 guys looked at us. Spencer raised an eyebrow. And Ryan asked, “were you just listening to our conversation?”

Sam looked at me with the, what-are-we-suppose-to-tell-them look, I saw she was getting red and embarrass. She gets red easily.

“uhmmmm…..” Sam said.

 

 

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Ok,that’s the end of chapter 1. so what did you think? It was suppose to be a cliff hanger. But I think it didn’t turn out to be a cliff hanger. Hahahaha…please tell me if I do need to continue this and if many of you comment and tell me you like this,I’ll update more and faster. XD oh, and tell me if its too long… and I think this one is too long.hahaha…so tell me if I need to shorten this up or what…XD

Ok. So, uhmm, I’ve read so many great fanfics from creative friends from here. So now,I wanna try to do my own fanfic. This will be my first time to make a fanfic so I want your opinions about it. I’d totally respect good and bad critics from you. Anyway this will be a Panic fanfic. I was considering a MCR fanfic.. But I dunno, Panic at the Disco had appealed to me more, for now…

 

Well I’ve considered this as my title:

 

The Only Difference… (You and Me)

In The Middle Of Summer

We’ll Never Know until We’re There

Charm Our Way Out

Just For the Record

What a Tragic Event

We Better Be Sure

We’d Survive This Together

I’ll always carry a little piece of you with me

 

But I’d choose the title,

 

 “I’ll Always Carry a Little Piece Of You With Me”

anyway, i wanna know if people would read this..so,please tell me if you would..coz i'l;l post the first chapter later...:)

I had this dream..and,well,its pretty odd…lol…im writing this up coz of  “projectbroken”,I read her “pretty odd dream”,and she wanted to know mine..so here you go…

 

Well,it started off that I was at the park,where I practice tennis, while I was walking towards the tennis court with my dad (who’s like my partner in playing tennis), I saw 4 guys already playing. I looked more and I saw one guy holding a baseball bat, and that was what he was using to hit the tennis ball,well,of course I laughed, then he turned his head to me and I saw it was brendon urie. And the other three guys playing with him was jon walker, spencer smith and Lindsay lohan. Jon was holding a badminton racket,which was already kinda broken. And spencer was holding a tennis racket (wow,the normal thing to use in playing tennis..lol), then I saw Lindsay lohan just standing there and kinda just staring into spencer’s eyes. I got shocked so I dunno,I think I got dizzy or had a black out, then the next thing I knew I was laying on a soccer field and a dog licked my face, and I heard someone yelling “no hobo!”---(something like that),then I saw  someone who was running towards me..and as the figure was coming clear for me to see,I saw ryan,he got hobo on top of me then helped me get up. He said thanks then I said no problem. He invited me to go shopping with him. I said sure. Then the next scene was we were on a mall—kinda circus like mall with clowns,and mimes…oh,and I saw the porno mime too who was the –well the porno mime in the music video “build god---”,then the porno mime dude came towards us..(now I was with my dog helga who already died,hobo and ryan)..then ryan and the porno mime make out in front of me..then I heard hobo said “hey,Helga,you wanna make out too?” then my dog Helga nod and they kissed—im not sure how..but they did it…then I saw brendon and Gerard way holding hands and was coming towards us, , I pulled a guy who was just walking pass us,then  he said to me “I love you” and I was like “all my life I waited for you, I love you too!”…then brendon slapped me on the face, and said “why cha?!(my name is cha by the way) why?! I married you then you do this to me? How fuckin dare you?! I love you so much then you do this to me..fuck it!”..and I said “nah-ah,I wasn’t married to you! I was married to this guy right here!”..then the guy who I pulled said “no,I wasn’t married to you, I haven’t even met you ,until now…” then he started looking at me strange, like he wanna do some dirty things—well kinky things….then spencer hit him on the head with a pan. Then jon came too, hitting spencer on the head with a mug. Then spencer said “what the fuck man?!”..then jon said,"im sorry". Then Gerard way who was still holding brendon’s hands was like wearing a skirt and a pink top and had long platinum hair, said “now,my fuckin children, please fuckin sit down and fuckin enjoy the fuckin show!”. Then I looked around and we already had chair place for us to sit then theres this runway. So,we sit I was beside brendon and ryan, so I asked brendon “are we really married?” then he said,”nope.” Then I said, “then why the heck did you said we were married!”…then brendon said “just coz I really wanna be with you hunny.i really do.”…then I just said ok then brendon asked “ok?! You tell me one word?! Ok?! What the-----’’..then some people said be quite the shows gonna start. Then we see tyra banks and heidi klum pulling each others hair. They were like “im gonna be Americas next top model! Not you KLUM!” then heidi was like “I don’t wanna be Americas next top model, im already in the top unlike you!i wanna be in project runway!i wanna win and have the car!mwuahahahahaha!”then as some models where now strutting down the runway,I see ryan come up and pull me with him there then we dance…then I saw brendon crying. I dunno why. Then ryan said to me “know what?” “what?”  ryan said “brendon is gay!” and I was like “no way!really!?” then ryan said “no,I just like telling people brendon is gay.” Then he hugged me and said “hi!”—in a girly voice and it was high…..i said “why’d you say hi?!” then he said “bye” then vanished. Gerard way was now standing beside me with an umbrella then I see we were in a graveyard--------

 

That’s the end…awww,i wanna know why we were in a graveyard!hehehe..but I dunno,why those this seem to em like this was so long? But when I dreamed it was like short?hahaha..i dunno about that…lol…I got some crazy stuff going on huh…lol..

got tagged:

All you have to do is check bands that you enjoy.


Then add them up and repost as “I like ___ out of 108 bands.

"

ALTERNATIVE
[x] Breaking Benjamin  
[x] Paramore
[x] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[x] Linkin Park
[x] The Academy Is…
[x] Coldplay
[ ] Three Days Grace
[x] Yellowcard
[x] 30 Seconds to Mars
[x] Rise Against
TOTAL SO FAR: 9

COUNTRY
[ ] Rascal Flatts
[ ] Carrie Underwood
[ ]  Leanne Rimes
[ ] Garth Brooks
[ ] Dixie Chicks
[ ] Kenny Chesney
[ ] Tim McGraw
[ ] Faith Hill
[ ] Shania Twain
TOTAL SO FAR: 0

“EMO” MUSIC
[x] Hawthorne Heights
[x] Panic! At The Disco ---(they are not EMO ok!?sheesh)
[x] From First to Last
[ ] Senses Fail
[ ] Underoath
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit The Lights
[x] Silverstein
[ ] Dear Whoever
[ ] Chiodos
TOTAL SO FAR: 4

INDIE
[x] The Hush Sound
[ ] Eisley
[x] Death Cab for Cutie
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[x] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[ ] Hot Hot Heat
[x] Gym Class Heroes
[ ] Franz Ferdinand
[ ] Modest Mouse
TOTAL SO FAR: 6

METAL
[x] Slipknot
[x] System of a Down
[ ] Disturbed
[x] Metallica
[x] Guns n’ Roses
[ ] Lamb of God
[ ] Atreyu
[ ] Killswitch Engage
[x] Avenged Sevenfold
[ ] CKY
TOTAL SO FAR: 5

POP
[ ] John Mayer
[ ] Teddy Geiger
[ ] Ashlee Simpson
[ ] Kelly Clarkson
[ ] Jesse McCartney
[ ] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink
[x] Natasha Bedingfield
[ ] McFly
[ ] Jonas Brothers
TOTAL SO FAR: 2

SCREAMO
[x] Bullet For My Valentine
[ ] Job For A Cowboy
[ ] Drop Dead Gorgeous
[ ] Blessthefall
[ ] The Devil Wears Prada (this is the first time i've heard of this band and isnt this liek a book and a movie?lol)
[ ] Bring Me The Horizon
[ ] Dance Club Massacre
[ ] Preschool Tea Party Massacre
[ ] Scary Kids Scaring Kids
TOTAL SO FAR: 1

RAP---(ewwww,i hate rap!but i must say i did like outkast when i was like 9?!lol.but i only know like 1 song which is "heyyah" something like that..lol.)
[ ] Nas
[ ] Paul Wall
[ ] 2pac
[ ] Mims
[ ] Ludacris
[ ] Lil’ Jon
[x] Outkast
[ ] 50 Cent
[ ] Birdman
[ ] Three 6 Mafia
[ ] Lil Wayne
TOTAL SO FAR: 1

SKA
[ ] Rancid
[ ] The Aquabats
[x] Sublime
[ ] No Doubt
[ ] Reel Big Fish
[ ] Mustard Plug
TOTAL SO FAR: 1

MODERN ROCK
[x] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[ ] Motion City Soundtrack
[x] Angels and Airwaves
[x] Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance(of course!lol...)
[ ] Drowning Pool
[x] Green Day
[x] Blink 182
[ ] Digital Summer
[ ] Denial Method
TOTAL SO FAR: 7

CLASSIC ROCK
[x] The Beatles
[x] Led Zeppelin
[x] Black Sabbath
[x] The Rolling Stones
[x] The Who
[ ] Pink Floyd
[ ] Meat Loaf
[x] Queen
[ ] Poison
[ ] AC/DC
[ ] Journey
[x] KISS
[ ] Boston
TOTAL: 7

ok got this news from my multiply friend iana....i dunno if its true or not...so tell me if u know soemthing about it...well,heres what iana said:

frank iero committing suicide!!! help!!!

Mar 8, '08 6:23 AM for iana's contacts

link:http://schoolisforsquares.multiply.com/journal/item/7/frank_iero_committing_suicide_help

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so is this true guys????!!!!!!please say no....

GERARD WAY

[x]-deathly afraid of needles
[x]-creative/artistic/loves to draw
[ ]aries horoscope sign
[x]-freaks out when sees nipple rings
[x] wears a lot of black-
[x]-likes superhero comic books and has some
[x]-has black hair
[]- 5"9 height
[x]- likes vampires

so far: 7

MIKEY WAY

[ ]-virgo horoscope sign
[ ]-loves unicorns
[ ]-has a pet cat
[x]-hates small spaces
[ ]-hates large and open spaces
[x]-hates large bodies of water
[x]-always give good names
[ ]-liver damage
[ ]-5"9 to 5"10 height
[x]- loves to eat SUSHI

so far: 4

FRANK IERO

[ ]-scorpio horoscope sign
[ ]- short
[ ]-learn how to tie a tie
[ ]-many tatoos on body
[ ]-suffers from bronchitis
[x]-very talkative (at times)
[ ]-prone to injuries
[ ]-has bruises
[x]-went to catholic school
[x]-has had hair short and long
[x]-likes batman and thinks spiderman is too whiney
[x]- plays or is going to play guitar

so far: 5

RAY TORO

[ ]- 6"1 height
[ ]- cancer horoscope sign
[ ]-eats crayons
[x]-hates to touch/pull his or her hair
[ ]-wears contact lenses
[ ]-cannot cook at all
[ ] -could have an afro if wanted
[ ] -makes tin foil hats
[ ]- afraid of large bodies of water
[x]- has a nickname used by close friends(e.g. torosaurus)

so far: 2

BOB BRYAR

[ ]-capricorn horoscope sign
[ ]-hates to be filmed/take a picture by a camera
[ ]-heart broken
[ ]-likes to be called skinny
[ ]-likes the hulk but not superman
[ ]-plays drums
[x]-writes songs about friends

so far: 1

who are you most like?

GERARD WAY

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source of this/credit to gabby (a.k.a. emogirl100)

ok,im not sure,...maybe its a rumor or something...but is it true?...please tell me if you do know something...

ok,well now i really love the band, Panic At the Disco---(now without the exclamation point(!)..)...but i still do love My Chemical Romance...

well, panic is a pretty amazing band, dont you think?hehe...and ryan ross and brendon urie are my favorite band members..hehe...and i must say,ryan is cute..lol..im not a fan girl--im a ---i dunno...lol,but im not a fan girl...hehe...
ok,im so excited about the new album, PRETTY. ODD.
i totally love, "nine in the afternoon"..so i guess if that song is good, so is the others...and ever since i saw the music video "i write sins not tragedies" i started loving the song and i bought the album....but now---when people said there's gonna be a new album, i started liking them more than ever,and besides, i have a little crush on ryan ross...hahaha..but im not against keltie,his girlfriend, i forgot her lastname though...hehe...to be honest, im happy that ryan is happy with keltie,im those fans who say.."keltie is a bitch" or "i hate ryan ross's girlfriend, if his with me, he'll be happier"...well for me,if you really like or love someone,specially a musician or a celebrity, you should just be happy for them..damn it, if i were the one who the so called "fan girls",love/like,i'll totally be pissed off...well,if i were gerard way or ryan ross..i'll totally be pissed off when i'll read something in the internet that people are hating lyn-z or keltie....so,if i were u,back off and just be happy for them..dont hate there girlfriends...and as if you'll end up with them..well,you can,but it'll be in your dreams...

anyway,enough about that...i just wanna say,mcr and panic at teh disco rocks...hehe

thats all folks...lol

ok,its 5 in the morning now,and i am suppose to be getting ready to go back to school,since i didnt went there 4 the past 2 days,..i hadnt had time yesterday to post something...

it is almost 18 hours since helga died,:(...
i found her dead at 11:40 am on february 6,08...
i want to tell you the details on how and what happend, but i need to go get dress 4 school...:(

i miss her and i love her...
i cried almost the whole day yesterday..:(

when i get back from school, i'll post right away the details,or just update this journal....



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ok,so heres the update im talling you...i just got back home from school..and its almost 5:30 pm...well i got here earlier but i replied to the comments that people left...anyway..about helga...

as i've said,she died yesterday,february 6,it was 11 am..
well,before that i was just finished using the computer,i even remembered that the last comment i gave is to jesstarn..then i off the computer and went to my room..i watch tv..i was watching the tyra banks show..(haha...)and then i just remembered hela,so,i went outside to take a look at her..it was so sad how she looked,she cant open her eyes,she cant react that i was there(like when she wasnt like this,she was so happy when she sees me,)then now,she just cant react,..i kinda stroke her head(well,like a tap..i just tap her head or like touched her from head to her body using my palm) then i took a picture of her then after that,tears kinda appearing on my eyes,i wiped it then just tilt my head and looked to my other dog coz she barked(my other dog,named pheobe..)then t turned my head again to helga...then i realized,that she wasnt breathing...i really focused on her,wishing any min. her heart will beat again..but it didnt,so i went inside,called my dad and told him he;ga's dead...i went outside again,now with my father..then he said he'll need to burry helga soon...coz its kinda smelling bad already...tears runned o my cheek,i went inside my room,and just calmed myself..then went outside again to see her,my dad was carrying her with this cart-thingy and it was so miserable to see,her head isnt moving(well,duh she's dead..but..its just so sad to see her like that..carried away,to rot,and burried on the soil...)...i went inside again,comforted myself then run outside,just to see nothing more,my dad already had burried her...she's burried just in front of our house...(theres a park just outside our house,and my dad burride helga in front of the park's soil...not entering at the park..just the outside of the park...)and to be honest,the place where helga was burried,if u'll go inside my room,its just infront...(hard to explain though..sorry if u dont understand..)when u'll take a look outside my room,u'll be infront of the park-part,where my dog was burried...is it just a coinsidence that she was burried just infront of my room where i could just see the "grave-yard" of my helga..?and is it a coincidence that i had this feeling to just go outside and take a look at helga and still find her breathing but then she died? or i dunno...maybe she called me or something...well,i dont know really but im just happy to see her before she died,i mean see her still alive before she died...and at least(what my friends say)she'll rest in peace,she'll never suffer anymore and i need to just look on the positive and bright side..and just think of helga with all our cherish and happy moments...

Helga,at around 1:14 am of feb. 6..(i was checking on her..like what i used to when she got sick,i checked up on her every hour,specially on nights...)(its too dark...sorry)


this was taken at around 11 am,this was the picture i was talking about a while ago..(the last picture i took before i cried and saw her dead there...so sad to see her like that.. ;( ..)



and now,this is the last picture of helga and me,together..this was taken at the night of feb. 5...at around 7 or 8...i'll miss her so much...





this is dedicated to my dearest,
Helga


P.S.
i wanna put the heart-thingy icon-or something,but i dont know what keys i should tap for the heart-thigy to appear..is it Ctrl---i dunno,pls tell me if u know...thanks..i am suppose to put that hearts beside Helga's name..

well,as usual,i went to school...did usual school stuffs...and then after school,when i got home,my dog,(her names helga,she's named after a character from the cartoons "hey arnold"..so,anyway,)i really love her,and when i came home,she has ants going inside her eyes,she was just laying on the front yard,just laying there,at first i thought she was already dead...well,good she isnt,i rushed to her,then there,i saw the ants,i called my dad,i let him take off the ants..i dunno what he really did but the ants came off...then i stayed near her,still wearing my bag...then tears came running to my cheeks,well,of course i wiped it fast,i dont want them to see me crying,..she is not dead,just sick,but i dunno..i guess i feel that she'll be gone soon,thats why i cried..well,i went inside our house,still controlling the tears,when i got to the bathroom,there,i cried...i really love my dog...i grew up with her,and to be honest,she's even older than me...well,i wipped off the tears,i was so red,my eyes were puffy,and my cheeks are so red...then i went outside,i patted her head,or like just what we do with dogs---i dont know whats it called,but i'll use the term patt---well,i stayed with her there,outside,then my dad went inside the house,my mom's in there too,cooking..and my sister's there too...then i cried again...i was so sad..ugh..then i realize i still have to meet up with chang at her house and that we'll meet up mon at the coffeee shop,and ericka was gonna go to but she said she has to go home early,..so anyway,i thought that any min. now,that she'll die infront of me--she'll just stop breathing---but like almost an hour past,and im still at her side,but she's still breathing,i was still comfortung her,patting her head/or kinda brushing her fur using my palm....well,i took a look at my celfone,and its already 5 pm,i need to go now...so i went inside,got my things and stuffs...then i patted helga again,i said goodbye before i go,because maybe that'll be the last time i'll see her breathing..(oh,and also,she can not walk too,all the time that afternoon with her,she's just laying in the ground,,..i do even wanna hug her though,but i still needed to go somewhere else..),so yeah,i said goodbye to her,then went to the van..my dad took me to changs place...so,then,we went to the coffeee shop,ericka catched up,but went home quick,then mon came,we talked...then it was like 7:30---all that time,i havent had a bad news that helga died--i told my sister to text message me if something bad happend-or if helga was dead...but good thing,she didnt text....i went home,my dad fetch me---then helga was still there..but maybe tom. my dad said,maybe her time will be--now i just dont wanna think about he;ga passing away...:(

this was the first blog that i told you guys,who ever are reading this now,.about my day....well,i really wanna do this for my dog..:)..ugh,i wish she's immortal,haha...i want her to be with me even when i have kids..haha...so that my kids will also love her,and cherish her...:)

to my helga...:)


well i took a picture of her when she was laying on the ground,but im too tired,depress..i dunno..im just gonna update this next time or tomorrow...


if you wanna share some pet stories of yours...you could comment it here below..i wanna here your story people..hehe...wether its your dog,cat,fish,birds,hamsters,rats,lizards,sankes,llamas..just name it..hehehe...im willing to know your stories about your pets..:)

iam so excited that they are gonna make Twilight a movie...wow,it is the book that i picked for my book report in english...and now im finish reading it,i really like it...:),and like just yesterday,i found out they r making it into a movie!isnt it amazing!hehe..i was too tired to make a blog about it yesterday,so i did today..:)oh,and i made a poll about this...so,if you wanna answer my poll go ahead...hehe...

well,i got this from wikipedia:
Summit Entertainment optioned Twilight in April 2007. The film version is currently categorized as in-development; Catherine Hardwicke has signed on to direct, with a script by Melissa Rosenberg.^[7] Catherine Hardwicke and film crew recently toured Forks, Washington.^[8] It has been announced that Kristen Stewart will star as Bella Swan in the production.^[9] As of December 11, 2007, it has also been announced that Robert Pattinson will play the role of Edward Cullen. The movie on Summett Entertainment is now feactured as in-production.

oh,heres a picture of robert pattinson(i had a crush on him when Harry potter and the goblet of fire was released as a movie...)hehe...his the perfect actor!


and heres a picture of kristen stewart,she is so pretty..:)...


oh,and if you were wondering.."what does bella's car look like,or edward's...well,here pictures of there cars:
bella's truck


edward's volvo:


and if you wanna see more cars of the characters like alice and rosalie's..heres the link:
http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight_cullencars.html

if you wanna find out more about the movie plans and what stepehenie meyer thought about kristen stewart and robert pattinson to play Bella and Edward...heres the link:

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight_movie.html

also,some voters picked gerard way!,to be a potential edward...hehehe...he could play that part very well,,,hehehe..XD..if you dont believe me,its on the site,..the link is on top of this....




well,i am so excited for the movie!!!!im  more hook up to the books more than ever...:)

(from the site,multiply.com)

Manila (AP)-My Chemical Romance, the
hottest, if not the coolest, band alive
in the world, will postpone their tour
in the Philippines at the Fort
Bonifacio
Open Field on Jan. 25, 2008. Instead, a
band called "The Black Parade" will
spearhead the concert.

Actually, it is still My Chemical
Romance who will perform the main
highlight of the event, just keeping
the
focus on their 3rd album "The Black
Parade". The band, composed of front
man
Gerard Way, his brother and the band's
bassist Mikey Way, rhythm guitarist
Frank Iero, lead guitarist Ray Toro,
and
drummer Bob Bryar. Gerard Way, the
hotshot vocalist of MCR, said that
their
tour at the Philippines will be the
grandest of all South East Asian "BP"
tours, having famous bands such as Fall
Out Boy, Green Day, The Red Jumpsuit
Apparatus and artists such as Sean
Kingston, Rihanna and Avril Lavigne,
and
local bands such as Chicosci, Rivermaya
and CallaLily to perform. Matt
Pelissier, the former drummer of the
band, will also coming to thew event
and
will face Bob on a showdown. Then, a
duet between Gerard and Rihanna will
highlight the event before the battle
of
the bands. To top it all, all the bands
will portray the song of My Chemical
Romance's top hit singles The Black
Parade, Famous Last Words and Teenagers
their own style. And that the winning
band will have a final showdown with
MCR. Tickets range from Php3750,
Php2500, and Php400. The My Chemical
Romance will also having live
performances at selected bars and
activity centers around Metro Manila.
At
their last day at the Philippines
(January 27), the band will take down
the Roxas Boulevard and they'll be
portraying their video of the Welcome
to
the Black Parade. A fireworks display
will enlighten the end of their 3 day
tour at Manila.

 

 

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THIS IS SO NOT TRUE!

SOMEONE MADE THIS UP
AND IT"S NOT ME!
SWEAR!

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-ok it now me-(diehardrocker/ cha)

i was like "wtf" when i finished reading it..i really thought it was true..and my heart was beating so fuckin' fast..i thought it'll stop or something..haha...i really thought that im gonna find a way to go tomorrow to the concert because of what it said.....

ugh,its tomorrow,darn it,and im not allowed to go...:(fuck....

i really wanna see them all!and all the mcrmy filipinos and other mcr lovers..but i heard that there r going to be posers there(on the concert)...i knew this guy and his friends who r going to the concert,and they dont even know who r the band members..and i think they only know,like uhm.,..4 songs from mcr,,and they dont even memorize the lyrics on the songs..and they arents really a (big) mcr fan....*Sigh,i really wanna go..:(

but,then again,taht life..my fuckin' life..:(

but i had a plan,me and my friends would just hang out together so that i would kinda be distracted and wont be angry or in abad mood coz im not in the concert....